https://vimeo.com/533738662 Working through feelings: I am terrified of losing my strength. Exercise: Body weight tricep dips with a hip extension. A performance project I started late 2021, marrying fitness with performance. https://vimeo.com/533739367 Working Through Feelings: An overwhelming sense of anxiety that I won’t get everything done. Exercise: bucket drops https://vimeo.com/533740556 Working Through Feelings: The anger I feel at myself when I waste head space being [...]

It's true that the hardest thing of all is writing a proposal for open calls. when you have to describe how you will develop your work and how it will be of use to the world in some way. Why are these so hard to do? I can confirm that I know why they are for me. It's because, as I go through your portfolio, [...]

after a weekend of going wrong with time- forgetting that next weekend was the next BBeyond workshop date, not this weekend, and legging into the studio so as not to be at home like last week, hemmed into the bedroom, with familial arguments and unhappiness happening right outside the door, resulting in me trying to concentrate and perform fucking relaxing dance interludes whilst flooded with [...]

I found this writing in a notebook this morning when I was hunting for other notes. The last two lines: desperate times = desperate action. When your mind is chaos, take control. I like the performance idea too, I think I will do this soon. Listened to a panel talk this morning with some artists talking about lockdown, etc etc. It was a pretty honest [...]

This morning we had a zoom meet with two staff members of Clare Haven- Trish who works in the refuge and has outreach duties, and Deirdre who runs the children and young people's services. BTW for anyone reading there are no names or identities mentioned in this post, nor were there in the zoom meeting. We spoke only on a generalistic level. One thing I [...]

Thinking about this and how to develop My mind returns to the idea of smiling through discomfort. But relatively mild discomfort, as is chopping onions. Like chopping onions is a mild discomfort that is not going to kill you. But mild discomfort over time is insidious, and poisonous. In term sof this work the banality of chopping onions with the strong painted on smiley imagery [...]

I signed up for a 3 week online (no other type right now) workshop with BBeyond Live, the Northern Ireland based performance art organisation. Started last weekend. As the procedure and the workshop space is confidential won't relay direct events but I wanted to record some of my thoughts around it and some of the utterances that stayed with me: Productivity is not important in [...]

'The days roll by' for Line of Thought - 80cm x 300cm, black acrylic, brown paper At the time of writing this post this drawing is finished, rolled up carefully, inserted into its cardboard roll, secured, sealed at each end, addressed, and posted, yesterday. It's to arrive in 2 days from time of postage, all going well. I thought about couriering but given the recent [...]

So I got emailed by Peter, director of Ps2 Belfast, about a short drawing show starting 4 March. They asked if I wanted to contribute. He was particularly interested in the brown paper scroll works I'd shown mainly here on the blog, as opposed to on insta. I had avoided putting this work directly on insta as it was unfinished and also for the upcoming [...]