I am sat here reviewing the guidelines for applying for a visual arts bursary with the arts council. It is almost humorous how the very act of reading the guidelines gives me acute imposter syndrome. I then read over the feedback I got from the recent Covid 19 award application, which was just scores, and the feedback for the first round of the bursary awards, [...]

collaborated images sent to me so far Here are the images people I have asked to be involved have sent back so far. I am happy because what I had hoped would happen is happening- the image is being transformed in the hands of the collaborator. Each time it becomes less about me and more about them which i had hoped for- so it would [...]

I submitted 2 items to the CIACLA online program. Pack, unpack and Suck/Blow I did not get an email acknowledgment of submitting. Let's wait and see. It's unpaid but I can't really talk as I am asking people to collaborate with me on my drawing project. This is the info that I am sending out to people: Digital Graffitti- a collaborative drawing project by Rachel [...]

So in a bid to maintain some control over things Ive been getting up early, Im managing 2 or 3 mornings a week at 6am. This is, when achieved, very productive. I get emails sent and this week a job application rewritten and sent- all of which are very hard to do unless I get some peace and quiet to concentrate. So yes its great [...]

Think this starts on 26th? Today being 23 that means I will be starting Friday? OK I jsut checked its the 24th, starts tomorrow. They asked in email: What does the word SPACE mean for you? •How would you use SPACE? •And what do you want to MAKE SPACE for?  SO considering these: Obviously I am constrantly trying to make space and to validate the time I [...]

OK just spent 20 mins trying to update my passwords in my new mac. Done rnow. Sigh. If you could keep emotion out of things it would be so much easier sometimes. Like yesterday. Ronan came home from work with the news that the house we had hoped to buy, had nearly bought but had backed out of because of the realisation that we were [...]

made these drawings last week. feeling very aware of my current physical age and physical body. Not got control over my time and the days are slipping away like paper in the wind, I am marking them by drawing. I like the distorted perspective here. I am going to make more. I wanted to try non ink drawing for a change. The graphic lines of [...]

It's Thursday 3rd June. The weeks are rolling by so incredibly fast its hard to place value on time. I feel like I've just bought a bottle of wine on a Friday to 'congratulate' myself for getting through the week (the weekend is the same as the week right now) when its Wednesday again. I feel anxious, like Im not doing enough, a little stuck [...]

Clench I made this image in the end for Games For Artists And Non Artists. I tried a lot of things out and came back to this image as it felt the most authentic to how I'm feeling now.The image works for me on a sculptural level and could symbolise how I am navigating these times we are in. This kind of shows my performative side and [...]

Got an insta message from the curator of a group called Games for Artists and Non Artists. In the same day I got this message, from the curator of the project, Brendan Fox, and also an invitation from my old guest tutor Lucy Lyons about a future residency in Gordon House, Margate. The suck/blow slipstream piece seemed to have hit the spot.. Anyway the GFAANA [...]