thinking about the effort and time required to apply for call outs (HUGE) weighed up against the potential for that time to be used in other ways (CONSIDERABLE) weighed up against the actual statistical chance of success in aforementioned call-outs.. (SMALL) Of course I made a post about this, wanted to see what people said- got a lot of agreement. And straight after I got [...]

corridors interior rooms front right exterior of building dropped in to get some shots of the interior of Clare Haven upstairs today- I forgot how literally huge it is. there are 15 rooms in all that we can use. more to come later.

3 land art pieces to make this summer first: 1: Tide Map Durational piece around the shore tide, our new ability to travel to the edge of our counties. Go to the Flaggy shore beach (or similar beach) at a time when it has low attendance (early morning?), make a performance around mapping the tide coming in over the 6 hours. Can check tides here [...]

I finally made the WTF performance today. I'd tried making it on Thursday and tried to do it on instagram live, thinking I could save it afterwards. I got through about 20 minutes, cramped in the hallway of the house, from what I could see, live streaming. Then the phone rang and the tripod lurched and the whole thing went to shit. It was not [...]

The open call Id submitted my weird little video piece to was successful and it has been beautifully curated and put together. Its really gratifying to have work in such a well organised and documented show. When I made this it was lockdown, I was claustrophobic, emotionally exhausted from dealing with the kids, no private time at all, at home all day with the family, [...]

Time to commit the thoughts and get things made. More than just the usual day to day stuff to get done that is. How to do the WTF performance? What successful home performances have I watched? What constitutes successful? Where to perform. I need a space that I can work uninterrupted for at least an hour. If not two hours. I think if I am [...]

Today ( Monday 12) I posted this to Insta and FB: Wanted please: your feelings. Please send me a feeling which you are having, a good feeling, a sad feeling, angry, despairing, irritated, worried feeling, I’ll accept them all with thanks. I am an artist who works with emotions and exercise to make performance art. You can DM me your feeling, or post it as [...]

https://vimeo.com/533738662 Working through feelings: I am terrified of losing my strength. Exercise: Body weight tricep dips with a hip extension. A performance project I started late 2021, marrying fitness with performance. https://vimeo.com/533739367 Working Through Feelings: An overwhelming sense of anxiety that I won’t get everything done. Exercise: bucket drops https://vimeo.com/533740556 Working Through Feelings: The anger I feel at myself when I waste head space being [...]

It's true that the hardest thing of all is writing a proposal for open calls. when you have to describe how you will develop your work and how it will be of use to the world in some way. Why are these so hard to do? I can confirm that I know why they are for me. It's because, as I go through your portfolio, [...]