I got the crawl done yesterday. 2 done 1 to go!
Wasnt as bad as Id thought. Or rather Id been right in thinking it would be mentally easier than the tide map walk.
I put some thoughts into my phone notes at end of the experience- i will copy and paste directly here- misspells and all- and then revisit later.
Notes on mullaghmore pilgrimage
Started at 7.10 ( had to wait for a rainshower to pass)
No one there
Beautiful
Smell- Peary and clear and fresh
Feeling calm and pretty controlled
Issue- no way of knowing how far, even though had done walk night before. Took almost ? Got to tip at 9.44
Physical: knees and hands, well wrists were hurting- but knew I could do it. Was saying question of how long it would take
Picked up a rock halfway as my weight of expectation
Placed my weight of expectation on top of mullaghmore- an act of generosity- giving my expectations to the earth
ExpectaTions k have of myself- physical, emotional, parent, carer, achiever, art, fitness. Always striving to perfection to be the best to do more more
What for
Who for
Thinking about his in an objective way
A crawl up a mountain is easy compared to living up to these expecTauons which themsef are middle class expectations
Stop criticising yourself
Good to see how things felt to do it
Now will footage work
Drone went missing Just after I reached top
So walked back down
Could have climbed but would have taken 2.5pre hours
Interesting
I talked to myself a bit on way up
Rhymed words
Snails
Also very quickly I was wet through from dew n grass and plants
Mostly felt relief that opportunity to make the work was not wasted. Kids in dublin. Don’t even have to be back to pick them up
Extraordinary feeing of freedom and lack of responsibility
